"Crazy Trans Woman" Syndrome
im just gonna keep reblogging this because EVERYONE NEEDS TO READ AND REBLOG (NOT JUST LIKE) THIS RITE NOW. i havent read a post on tumblr that covered so many important points on transmisogyny in queer spaces so well in a long time. and seeing as how no one ever seems to really have these conversations, it makes it all the more important. SO READ AND REBLOG IT DAMMIT.
My doctor, who is a trans woman, and I had a conversation today about the guy who raped me earlier this year. At first she was like “did you charge him?” When I explained that he’s a trans man of colour, she immediately got why I hadn’t. Not because I couldn’t bare to put a trans person, especially a trans person of colour, in jail (which I can’t), but also because it would cause me to be completely ostracized by the queer/trans community in Toronto. I’d be “just another crazy trans woman.” It was an uncomfortable realization for both of us to sit there, as trans women, knowing that we have literally no recourse when violence is enacted on us within the community (though if the same violence conveniently came from a white cis straight man, we would be celebrated as heroes for standing up to such an easy target, at least within the queer/trans community).
She and I both, as professionals in the community, are well aware of the fine line we have to walk in order to be taken seriously in the queer/trans community. We not only have to look a certain way (both in terms of passing and in terms of conforming to queer normative acceptable standards of appearance), we also have to make sure not to rock the boat too much. We have to appear as sane and calm as possible, no matter the circumstances. If we show too much emotion at any time (read: any inconvenient emotion), we get hit with a double-whammy of misogyny and transphobia, quickly written off as hysterical “crazy trans women.” Accuse the wrong person of something, anyone too close to queer-home, and that’s the end of our credibility and the revoking of our entrance passes to Queerlandia.
It’s exhausting having to walk such a fine line. I’ve found that there are so many “danger zones” to watch out for. Trans women have to not only be queer-literate (knowing queer social justice language), we have to be exceptionally good at using it. Any minor slip of language or politics and we’re labeled “crazy trans women” by cis people while trans men nod knowingly in agreement — rarely standing up for us, and just as often perpetuating the ‘crazy trans woman’ stereotype themselves.
I became aware of this initially through cryptic warnings from an older queer trans woman friend of mine, years before I became involved in the queer community, but I didn’t realize the extent of it at first. That is, until I was invited to participate in it. When I first became involved heavily, I befriended two trans men whom I looked up to a great deal, and one of the first conversations we had in private was a gossip session in which they “warned” me about various trans women and got me to agree that they were “crazy.” I’ve found similar conversations throughout the community, often used in a way that it makes me wonder if what’s really happening is that they’re subconsciously testing my loyalty to the queer zeitgeist. Am I good tranny or a bad tranny? Am I willing to be part of their clique, giving them the ability to deflect any and all criticism of transmisogyny, or am I a “problem?”
Before I realized that this was a system, that trans women were being systematically tested and written off, I engaged in it myself. You get a self-esteem boost, knowing that the cool kids don’t count you among those trans women. Those trans women who stepped on the wrong toes, who take up “too much space,” who don’t have the right guilt-producing identity complex to be worthy of space (disabled young trans sex workers of colour who vogue are considered highly prized friend-accessories, to be seen but not really heard beyond the occasional “gurl” for comedic effect, but only if they have the right haircut and the right clothes and are working towards a bachelors of gender studies or similarly useless degree).
Who are these “crazy trans women?” Often they are incredibly sincere activists who haven’t had the privilege of being taught all of the ins and outs of anti-oppression social justice practice that is a prerequisite to membership in this queer community. Often they are labeled “too emotional” and “too angry,” “loose cannons” who are out of control when speaking about our experiences of sex work that don’t fit into the easily digestible “I do queer feminist porn on weekends to pay for my fluevogs while I’m in grad school” vision of sex work that the queer community has deemed acceptable. Often they are trans women who are said to take up “too much space,” while everyone whispers about how “you know, I know it’s wrong to say, but she just seems like she has male privilege, you know? Like you can just feel it. Not that I’m saying she’s a man, but, you know, you never know.”
At the end of the day, this whole complex of issues is simply misogyny, ableism, and transphobia dressed up as “community accountability.” It holds trans women to impossible standards, opening us up to vulnerability to all forms of in-community violence (physical, sexual, social), and creating a fear within the minds of so many queer trans women that our second-class position within the queer community could be ripped from our hands at any time for any minor infraction.
I’m tired of trying not to be a crazy trans woman in the voyeuristic eyes of queer community.
Morgan M Page/Odofemi, 2013.
It’s that time of year again when you get annoyed by the sight of bell-ringers representing an organization that hates you. Yes, it’s the annual appearance of the Salvation Army, and they’re hoping to trick you into thinking that they’ve turned over a new leaf. Well, they haven’t. The S.A. has a page on their&
DAYS LEFT IMMEDIATE LIFE OR DEATH HELP NEEDED ONE LAST TIME
Tumblr friends. You all saved my life. Unfortunately I need help one last time to keep it that way.
You helped me pay down a hospital bill so I could have major brain surgery in October. Well, the bill for that is $9,600- Medicaid covered the hospital, NOT the doctor(!!). due to financial hardship, it’s reduced to $4,500. (more than half my annual income, on Disability).
The problem: the doctor HAS TO adjust and monitor my new neuro implant every other week, and I WILL DIE WITHOUT THE ADJUSTMENTS. But he is NOT ALLOWED to see me more than once more unless this is paid.
The reduction has conditions: I must pay $1,000 by Dec 16, and the $3,500 balance by Dec 23.
This is a terrible blow to me, unreal. The frustration and fear is simply overwhelming.
So, sadly, I must ask for help one least time (I’ll get on Free Care in April). You’ve all already been so generous. The SPNFamily, fandoms, and Tumblr at large has been amazing. And if there were any way to avoid asking, I would.
PLEASE DONATE IF YOU CAN! I’ve set up a PayPal with the email firstname.lastname@example.org to accept funds (if you “send to a friend” there’s no fee). The hospital can only accept payment from me.
I know the Holidays are already an expensive time. Maybe give someone the gift of saving a life in their name? And I know I recently got so much help from you all. If I had any way to avoid this I would. And of course I’m happy to repay with fics, songs, editing, or anything I can.
As it is I’m also homeless and sometimes staying with my violent abusive parents, other times staying with friends. Every cent I get is going to other medical expenses and necessities.
PLEASE SHARE THIS as far and wide as you can! Share it as text so everyone can read and share again. Whether or not you can give, others may be able to.
Thank you all so so much! Below are some photos just to show what I mean. They called me with the settlement, but the original bill is there, as well as a few of my scars (yes they shaved the whole side of my head).
Thank you again! PLEASE DONATE AND SHARE IF YOU CAN, and ask me any questions.
[Update: WOW! So far you’ve all gotten me to almost half of the total bill! YOU ARE AMAZING! PLEASE DONATE AND KEEP SHARING so I can survive this!]
Sopranish is my friend, and I’ve personally witnessed the reality of her struggles, so I can vouch for both the urgency and the legitimacy of this plea for help. She is on a time crunch and really scared, so any shares or donations would be so, so appreciated. Every little thing helps!!
PLEASE help her.
She is so scared.
There’s 0.00 at my PayPal now and I won’t get my salary until tomorrow evening, so I can only spread this so far. Help her if you can.
QPoC Housing Resources and Initiatives: an incomplete list
Hello everyone! This is an incomplete list of LGBTQ shelters/initiatives that provide housing as well as assistance to LGBTQ PoC/ QPoC. If there are any shelters/initiatives I have left off please add them to this list, and then please let me know. While this list covers all 50 states in the U.S., please feel free to add the ones from your country, territories, or place of origin. We need as much as we can get. Thank you.
List of states in the U.S. and all Shelters (Please add more):
THE ARK OF REFUGE
The Ark of Refuge runs a 15 person transitional living facility specifically targeting LGBTQ young adults in San Francisco.
LA GENTE UNIDA
La Gente Unida is an organization serving the needs of
LGBTQ Latinas and Latinos in the Denver and Colorado
PO Box 11714
Denver, CO 80211
•District of Columbia
http://www.1800runaway.org/ (National Runaway Switchboard)
Fellowship of Lights: Runaway and Homeless Youth
Phone: (410) 285-7496
Fellowship of Lights provides emergency housing and supportive assistance for foster care involved and homeless and runaway youth, ages 12-17 in two shelter facilities, and operates after school programs for elementary and middle school aged children and youth in Baltimore City.
THE AUDRE LORDE PROJECT
The Audre Lorde Project is a Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual,
Two Spirit, Trans and Gender Non-Conforming People
of Color community organizing center, focusing on the
New York City area.
85 S. Oxford Street
Brooklyn, NY 11217
147 W. 24th Street, 3rd floor
New York, NY 10011-1911
SYLVIA RIVERA LAW PROJECT
Sylvia Rivera Law Project provides free legal services to
transgender, intersex and gender nonconforming lowincome
people and people of color. It represents and
advises clients in a variety of contexts.
147 West 24th Street, 5th floor
New York, NY 10011
Toll Free: 866-930-3283 Fax: 212-337-1872
Youthworks (Bismarck-Mandan Area)
Phone: 701-255-6909 (24-hour Crisis Line)
1 877 837 1801 (toll-free)
Youthworks is a resource for homeless youth in North Dakota. The Bismarck location has a peer mediation program, a cultural achievement program, and a Turnabout program for those at risk. They also provide services to runaway and homeless youth including individual, family counseling and mediation; group counseling; attendant care; juvenile diversion; transitional housing; support groups; emergency food, clothing and shelter; advocacy; crisis intervention and emancipation preparation
Phone: 701 232 8558 (for 24-hour Crisis Line, press 2 during message)
1 877 897 1213 (toll-free)
Youthworks is a resource for homeless youth in North Dakota, with drop in-hours on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays. They also provide services to runaway and homeless youth including individual, family counseling and mediation; group counseling; attendant care; juvenile diversion; transitional housing; support groups; emergency food, clothing and shelter; advocacy; crisis intervention and emancipation preparation.
•Northern Marianas Islands
WIND RIVER COUNTRY INITIATIVE FOR YOUTH
Wind River Country Initiative for Youth is an alliance of
LGBTQ and allied people of Native American and
Caucasian ancestry who work to address multiple
oppressions at the local level.
Insert Name of Country and Shelters Below:
Tumblrs dedicated to LGBTQ Housing.:
Source Citations Page and Additional Readings, Master posts, etc.
Note: These resources are lengthy and span all corners of LGBTQ homelessness. If you feel that these resources aren’t comprehensive enough, or if you would like to add your own, please let me know.
boost please. this is an incredibly useful list and hopefully some people might find it useful.
An ENTIRE WEEK oh wow we should worship them such a noble sacrifice to do for a week what their constituents have to live with year in, year out.
The levels of radiation in the area have set a new record for outdoor exposure, Japanese media reported.
It is so bad that in some areas just 20 minutes of exposure is fatal.
The Shot Glass Heard Around The World
In 1969, the Stonewall riots — precipitated when the NYPD burst into the famed gay bar and started being their usually abusive selves — defined the modern gay movement.
Among the first to physically resist the police was Marsha P. Johnson, the now infamous transgender rights activist who co-founded S.T.A.R. (Street Transgender Action Revolutionaries) with Sylvia Rivera in the ’70s.
At 1:20 in the morning on Saturday, June 28, 1969, four plainclothes police officers entered Stonewall Inn and announced “Police! We’re taking the place!"
Officers forced the customers to form into two lines divided by perceived gender and show them their genitals to confirm if it matched the gender on their identification card.
At some point during the raid, Marsha Johnson proclaimed, ‘I got my civil rights!' and then threw a shot glass into a mirror, adding on to the tension and creating an atmosphere of resistance. Some witnesses and historians believe her action is what instigated the riot.
Patrons began to refuse to produce their I.D. and police decided to arrest everyone still at the bar. Those who were not arrested gathered outside the bar and quickly drew a crowd of over 1,000 queers. As rumors spread through the crowd that those inside were being beaten by cops, they began throwing pennies, beer bottles and other items at police.
A drag queen who was shoved by an officer in front of the crowd responded by hitting him on the head with her purse as the crowd began to boo.
Soon after, an unidentified lesbian was hit on the head with a billy club after complaining that her handcuffs were too tight. She faced the bystanders and shouted, “Why don’t you guys do something?”
Police threw her into the back of a patrol wagons, at that point the crowd became a mob and collectively resisted the police.
Along with Sylvia Rivera, the two transgender revolutionaries created S.T.A.R. and STAR House in which they housed, fed and clothed homeless drag queens and trans* youth by hustling in the streets of NYC so that their children didn’t have to.
Marsha P. Johnson is often credited for inciting the Stonewall Riots, yet she receives close to no recognition by mainstream Gay Organizations and the queer community. I have no doubt that the erasure of Marsha’s participation in the riots and the Gay Liberation Movement is due to her being a black, transgender radical. Had she’d been a white gay cis-male, her name would be permanently embedded in every queer’s mind.
I know Marsha as a courageous queer revolutionary, a queen of Queens, a Stonewall Veteran, a dedicated activist, a mother of S.T.A.R. and a personal idol. She deserves more than anyone I know, to be recognized by the queer community.
In July 6, 1992, Johnson’s body was found floating in the Hudson River off the West Village Piers shortly after the 1992 Pride March. Friends of Johnson claims she was harassed near the spot where her body was found. The police disregarded this and ruled her death a suicide without any evidence. However, in November 2012, the NYPD re-opened the case.
Click here to watch “Pay It No Mind”, a documentary on Marsha P. Johnson.
I will keep on reblogging this each time it props up in my dash because it’s both important, heartwarming, and tragic.
Let the record reflect the conclusive result of empirical research spanning 27 studies from 10 countries: healthy eating is fucking expensive and people who deny this reality are annoying and full of shit.
Gray Boxes Instead of Photos on Text Posts Update II
It looks like the gray boxes are here to stay, so I’ve written a simple extension called “Auto Load Images”, now available on the extension gallery, that loads the photos without you clicking on them first.
Once again, the xkit guy wins by solving our gif problem in less than a day!
Feel like buying him a coffee?
He’s not setting out to make money with xkit, and wants to keep it free and without adds. Sending a couple bucks his way (if you can) will help him cover the cost of the servers that keep xkit running. Even if you can’t donate, please pass it on so others know about this opportunity!
[TW: Transphobia, Murder]
It takes a great deal of hatred to beat someone to death. To connect fists with flesh repeatedly until your target is no longer capable of living. I’ve been thinking about this level of rage as I consider that the man who allegedly pummeled Islan Nettles as she lay unconscious, Paris Wilson, is free for now.
If he had been indicted by a grand jury and found guilty, 20-year-old Wilson wasn’t going to spend much time in prison for the death of Nettles, a 21-year-old Black trans woman, who loved fashion.
Curiously, Wilson faced misdemeanor assault charges, which prosecutors dropped because another man in the group, that allegedly hurled homophobic slurs at Nettles and her friends on that late August night in Harlem, issued a confession. Police reportedly found the confession to be false, but the admission was enough to cast doubt in Wilson’s case.
DNAinfo.com reports that the prosecutor, New York District Attorney Nicholas Viorst, will now investigate the case as a homicide, a charge that doesn’t require a speedy resolution. Activists are calling for Wilson to be charged with a hate crime.
But as law enforcement sorts this out and as the clock ticks, there’s a message being sent here that Black trans women’s lives have no value. That it’s OK for trans women of color in this country to be in particular danger. That we’ll just have more Lashai McLeans, Tonya Harrells, NaNa Boo Macks, Chloe Alexander Moores, CeCe McDonalds and Islan Nettles. I’m stating the obvious here, but it needs to be said: This shit is wrong. And until we can get underneath the irrational fear that cis men (yeah, I said it: cis men) have of trans women; until cis men quit using battery of trans women as an assertion of their own maleness; until they understand that battering, stabbing, shooting at and killing trans women of color will actually result in actual punishment, this violence isn’t going to stop.
I remember when I first found out the truth about “Somali pirates” I got chills because of how horrific the truth was and how insanely creepily well the media had twisted the situation. Every single fucking article making it seem like these “pirates” were just after money or something holding innocent people hostage and I never gave it a second thought, why would I? There was no indication that people were trying to legitimately fight off disgusting imperialism that left nuclear waste in their waters, that over 300 people have died from radiation sickness, that Europeans have been stealing Somalia’s seafood because they overfished their own waters and the indigenous fisherman are starving and so these “pirates” emerged to deal with those stealing their country’s natural resources. The truth is enough to make anyone sick to their stomachs.
This is a great article about the truth about Somali pirates, in case anyone wants a source.
It’s coming up to Winter, it’s cold, and due to Government admin errors and several other hits, we’re now living below the poverty line and can’t afford to heat our home or eat.Edit: now we’re losing a further £250 a month and everything has taken an extremely dire turn
we can’t afford anything now
we literally just got a letter telling us that we’re losing £250 a month from are benefits thanks to new cuts
we already barely survive on very little and this is just like a death knell
i’m applying to apprenticeships and jobs but none will take me over younger people [that they can pay less] or older people [with more experience]
we aren’t going to be able to make it through winter without help, hell we’re not going to be able to make it through fucking december without help
we can’t take a loan out, because the repayments would cripple us and i just
please share this lick please reblog it i don’t care if you don’t care for me or if you’d rather not or what the fuck ever please just help by reblogging or we are literally going to die this is the worst news i’ve received in months i am begging you
W H O O P S(via gayblackgeek)
In addition to news articles pro-equality posts will be featured in order to highlight their ideas.
For the well being of the admins, their identity remains private. However if for any reason you need to contact us, the message box is always open.